guzheng!!!
im going to talk about it again..

frankly speaking, i dread going to guzheng when i was in sec 2
it was boring, and was like friendless. just one friend- jinli.
& i dislike guzheng

HOWEVER!! the situation had changed!!
sec 3 i met some friendly soul over there which change my thoughts abt guzheng!
they are yejia mama, christin nuer, elsie mummy and shirley!!
hahahas from that day onwards, i was like anticipating every lesson on both tues and thurs!!!
it is the place where my true smile reveals
i told my frens abt that and they were like... are you sure???
hahas! it's true!
and my bad skills begin to improve bit by bit...
cos im beginning to love guzheng!! hohoho!!

however, things started to change slowly again
it all started with a misunderstanding...
it was when she arranged us according to our syf position
she said that seniors should be sitted at the front..
and yet i was placed at the last few position..
thoughts started runnin through me..
how could it be possible and so fore...

after the lesson.. i immediately confront the tcher to clear my doubts
asking why is that so..
at first she say i was a junior and tats why im seated there, and blah blah blahs
i told her im a senior, and she was like uhh..
and say wat seating at the back doesnt mean one is lousy
okay... fine..
i felt really sad abt it though..

next day.. kaien, yejia and fellow mates told me that i was suppose to sit at the front instead
cos there was two jiaying over there...
and tat jiaying did not turn up the other day..
i began to believe that i didt hear properly
and inside my heart was like crazy alr
the trouble that i have been thinking all day long is finally solved woohoos!!
during lesson, i started to double check first..
just in case there is another misundersting by asking where is another jiaying suppose to sit..
phew.. she was really suppose to be seated at the back, the sit i sat yesterday!!
hahaha!! happily sitted there..
however.. that tcher was there asking me why i sit there =.="
i tried explaining that they was two jiaying.
and she said yes, i know. im referring to you. (tat chenjiaying)
fine... dunwan to argue with her, thinking tat she will realise it
since she allow me to continue sit there first

from then on.. i was really scare abt tat tcher.
i was lost. i dunno what to do..
trying to prove her wrong, and work hard practising.

& due to some valid reasons like going to grandpa funeral& the leadership programme
i missed 3 conservertive lessons!!!
i wasnt happy abt it. i even plead my dad to allow me to go to the gz camp but to no avail.
im really scared tat the tcher will yell at me or threaten to kick me out...

on 20 oct, when i went there
i was like trying to find out what they have learnt ,
trying to catch up
and there was a new song given
i was like doomed... idk how to play...
panicked is all i can do...
thanks kaien for teaching me(:(:(:

i was like really stressed up
and i even drew a guzheng and started practising!!
hohoho felt pleased with myself hahas
i managed to pick up the skills haha

to my dismay.. 3 nov,
i was asked to withdraw from the performance...
speechless...
her reason was that i always didt come! and thats why im progressing slow
3 conservative days could made her think that im one who always pon cca...
dun she know how anticipating i am?? does she?
i remembered once when i had high fever, i even went to attend the lesson.
ok fine. tcher have always taught us not to talk back
i kept quiet for this time
jus made myself think that it was jus another dream
blame myself for being lousy. tats it

4 nov.. which is today...
she asked the junior to leave early, while the rest stay back
to practice for the performance..
she pointed out christin, yejia, meloday, ruiyi, elsie, celeste, kaien, xinyi
& stopped.
melody pointed over. i shook my head..
yejia they all were curious and concerned.
they asked the tcher why...
i decided to hide myself
i was jus touched to tears...
hahas
let the facts be the facts
and i went off as fast as possible to hide from them hahas

i love my gz mates!
they rocks my lifee

i doubt things will continue like that..
how i wish tcher could understand.. (:
i will never give up guzheng! NEVER!
loves my GZ family hahas

jiaying