vex vex vex!
this week is totally horrible!
i just realise alot of things~
yuan lai wo shen mo dou mei you!
MEI YOU! nothing at all!
school is such a miserable place to go.
im beginning to dread going to school alr...
im like losing everything just within a blink
no matter how strong a girl can be, there will always be times
a girl will break down.
noboday will ever notice.
actually all these started from the june holiday till now.
im jus nothing...


she is like living in a world of hers
confined to herself.. noone to share her thoughts
not keeping everything to herself.. that will be really difficult like a ji shi zha dan
not to worry..
she just have her very own favourite softtoys. each representing a person.
they are just the best ever listeners ever.
they will be there whenever im happy, im sad.
i love them!(:
JY! wake up ba.. take everything in the past as a long and unforgettable dream.


couldnt be able to cheer up and have a great laugh with my fellow friends.
a fake laugh perhaps.
i want to hide my feelings& appear as cheerful as i could be..
couldnt concentrate on her studies.. and my result are really the worst i ever had. i have been failing and failing. all because of all these troubles i have?
i dun think its worth it.. not worth it at all!
but how? i have found some of the root of the problems, but could i solve them? no..
i jus hope one day i could really smile. with a real smile..
will you be there for me, if i say i need you? impossible? miracle?
this week shall be the best week to observe how are those who are really showering their concern on me.
she will cherish them! forever!
but im afraid there wun be any to be there for me.
and of cause those who are constantly lying, 'bullying', backstabbing me. well, i just believe there will be an end to it.
ren jia qi ni ke bie qi
qi le jiu zhong ji!
ren jia qi fu ni ke bie li
li le zi zhao ma fan!!!
will there be a rainbow after the rain?

LJY must learn to be independent.
she shall not depend on others.
im just alone.
im nothing at all.

in conclusion,
im not important at all.
ps: sorry for being negative...
(written on 7 aug)


=D
jiaying..